Always My Loss

It's not that I miss you

Fighting through all these lies

Your chuckle and your smile

The twinkle in your eyes

It's not that I feel your absence

Your love of country times

Your boot heels on my couch

Your spirit in my life

It’s the reason that I messed up

And drove you so far away

When I should have kept you close to us

And always here to stay

But it’s too late to tell you now

How much you meant to me

But I’ll just have to settle on

Your precious memory to me

But it’s not for your loss

Nor the ashes in my mouth

But can’t escape your memory

It’s your birthday again today