for DH

hidden in my smile and my laugh there is sadness

but only around you

i’m [never] happy [except when i’m] around you

that’s the sad part

at night

in bed

i close my eyes

pillows crumpled next to me in a crude form of

a [your] body

a playlist titled ______′s Recs with six songs

if streamed songs wore like vinyl those songs would be (smooth)

grooves worn (smooth)

a :) next to your contact name

only your contact name

only obtained for a group project

only:

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Hey, this is Isla

hey

What were those songs you told me to listen to?

I remember Down by the River, but what were the others?

Sunshine of your love by cream and in-a-gadda-da-vida by iron butterfly

Okay! I’ll listen to them tonight :)

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on your birthday, I gave you a bad motherfucker wallet from pulp fiction

we watched it together

you flicked my forehead whenever I nodded off

i wrapped it in golden paper, in a black box

delivered [two days late] with a cheesy

“Vincent, we happy?”

beaming, you responded:

“yeah, we happy!”

“this is the best gift i got for my birthday, and I got a bottle of vodka”

we haven’t talked since then.

8 days ago seems like forever

we don’t have any classes together

i miss you.

you aren’t mine to miss.