forevermore

this empty feeling inside,

slowly eating me alive.

suddenly crying myself to sleep at night.

how do you cease the pain ?

it will remain until i am no longer sane,

chipping away at my brain.

positivity fades to doubt,

i find myself going without.

similar to a drought.

unanswerable questions pin balling through my head,

almost making me wish i were dead.

however,

i am not selfish enough to make my wish a reality.

so i will continue living life absently.

wondering how you’re doing without me.

waiting for time to pass,

hoping my wounds will heal at last.

forevermore waiting for the true smile i never wore.