Present condition

My mid-term exam starts in five days,

So I’m supposed to be studying,

but my heart pulls me away,

literally lying that I’m all ready.

In two days, autumn break ends,

my holiday homework stays incomplete,

yet my heart ideally pretends,

that everything will flow neat&sweet.

There’s work assigned to me,

that should be done without amiss,

but my favourite cartoon is playing on TV,

So foolish heart tells ‘why should you miss?’

My heart is in orderly chaos,

I want one, but I want the other too.

It’s presently in pukka pathos,

Now I don’t know what to do.