Urge surfing

She's craving pills and I'm just wanting to know were you living for humanity or just looking for permission to die

I don't know what I desire I stand on his shore empty is it just autumn ennui is it too muchness school this urge to succeed I thought to fulfill the edict of a better angel but what if dust is all and we must sweep it all aside the urge to hurt the urge to purge the craving for chocolate to touch a strangers hair the urge for skin when I've forgotten what libido looks like when Sex is summer morning and unbroken time when we occupy bodies in space when we press skin to skin the impression of a leaf in wax what was it we were drawing again it comes out so faint so timid so lost on the white page