Parasite

All I ever wanted was your happiness

Guess it hurts knowing it won’t be with me

Who would’ve thought that happily ever after would be our worst enemy

The struggle to keep fantasizing in this reality

But the truth hits hard

The meaning of life, our path, our purpose is what’s tearing us apart

Tore right down the middle of our hearts

Painted on a canvas by a delusional start

Our story embodied a devastating piece of art

It hurts me, I don’t want to let you go

But I cannot see you hurt anymore

I’ve been selfish with my feelings

I’ve been waiting, I’ve been wanting, I’ve been needing

I’ve been on the floor kneeling and bleeding

I’ve only ever prayed for someone like you to walk into my world

You walked in, I couldn’t imagine my life without you

My prayers were answered, you became my world

We became one, now split into two

No matter how much I love you

No matter how much I want to marry you

I have to face the truth

I have to force myself

I have to get over you

I’m the one trying to hold you back

I’m the one you wish you never crossed paths

With,

Making you feel all these emotions you wished you hadn’t

I’m fighting these feelings now

Trying to get these demons out

Trying to hide behind the mirror

We are one, but I’m trying to get you to see much clearer

That 20/20 vision

Seeing past your own reflection

Greener on the other side, what your eyes have been missing

Deepest oceans in my eyes, I’ve just been missing you

Painted in black and white, not in coloured hue

The way I am is not what you wanted

I’ll never change myself, all our options have been exhausted

Standing away from you, my patience is weighted

Fall out of love with me, my river is tainted

Effortless connection with the blessings of Satan

Poisonous venom without an antidote

Save yourself now, we are already a sinking boat

Don’t let me linger around like a ghost

Racing back and forth with putting that ring on my finger

Parasite acting as the host