Without You

Spend late nights

mindlessly watching Youtube videos

on things I care nothing about

Just so I don't have to think about you

or that awful day when I first saw you

laying peacefully in the casket

without even looking like your beautiful self.

Yet when I go to sleep, you're there

happy and smiling and laughing,

vibrant and full of life,

even when I know that you're not.

And every morning,

I have to wake up to reality,

a reality that you no longer belong to,

a cold reality without you.

And every thing that happens,

I want to tell you--

you were always proud of my achievements

no matter how "nerdy" it was.

I cry watching movies

even though they're not sad;

I cry eating bagels

because they were your favorite;

I cry when I listen to music

because it puts my feelings into words;

I cry...

Because I miss you