Learning to love

He’s not my savior,

father, God or else

the carrier of my self worth,

and I can’t hope that he will fix me

and the pain I’ve brought from birth

He does not prove that I am worthy

of self love or otherwise

He shall not carry my existence,

I won’t put on my disguise

My fear is not that he will leave me

but the fact I can be left

and to ask of him to stay

is something far beyond his depth

I need to search within for answers

and let love them be my guide,

for my worth is not his bidding

but is buried deep inside