l i f e l i n e

you’re begging me

but like usual, i’m not

listening to your pleads

to stop using you like this,

to find a better way to survive

but you've become my lifeline

i paint lines with your jagged blade deep into

my sobbing skin

and you plunge into the bloody sea,

forever stained by the scars

that i seem to burden with on everyone i meet

i’m sorry i drown you in the blood that

holds me in this hostage of life

i'm sorry

i'm so sorry