Fear

Why am I always so afraid?

It’s like a constant fever plaguing my every thought.

Some say it’s wise to be afraid, to have fear is not be weak but to be clever, cautious. But what i f it overwhelms you, if it tears you apart from within like a ravaging storm, one showing no signs ceasing, of surrender. What if every turn, every decision is constant doubt , the fear of failure, of weakness,of not knowing with absolute surety the next step. People say it’s wise to be afraid because they are no t , they don’t feel the bottomless ache, the startling anxiety. They don’t feel the reality of fear , the rawness of it it is a word to them to us it is a pain so deep it scars where eyes cannot see , where ears cannot hear where endless screams ring throughout the darkness echoing in the proceeding nothingness.