Afraid

I cling to your “love” with all my strength. I fear letting go, for I will be alone. But our strings unravel and fall apart,

And I fear someone else will replace me when I return.

I try to fight and make it work. I pray that you will love me still. But I can see that you do not, as once before you left me. You promised you would not ever leave, but here you are, running again.

I’m too selfish.

They don’t like me.

They’re lying.

They hate me.

She won’t fight me,

my sister, my true other half.

But when I chose him,

She just wouldn’t believe me.

She knew his mistakes.

She felt the pain of his lies before.

She tried to tell me.

I didn’t listen.

You are what keeps me going.

The right choice, I don’t know.

I’m trying, I swear.

Please wait for me.

My heart has taken enough.

Get away from me.

I’ll walk this road alone.

I don’t need you.

I have enough.

But I’m still afraid.

And when I wake up,

Let me be.

(Inspiration- Afraid by The Neighbourhood)