Escapism

You’d be suprised how far you can get from your own thoughts and feelings. I use anything and everthing to ignore the shouts from within. I use books to escape to a world were I get to imagine the words coming to life around me. I use tv to get lost in a creation already prepared, and I use the internet to look up useless information, vidoes, and entertainment gossip. All to stop my brain from overloading and getting stuck on repeat, repeat, repeat...

I escape from this reality to one made up; for me or by me. When it is late at night and I can no longer use my normal means of mental disappearance, I lay in bed, turn the radio up high and sing along till sleep drags me under. I’ve made it a lifetime by suppression, denial, and go old fashioned stubborness. As much as I believe in forgiveness, there are things that I’ll never forget, so I’ll bottle it all up and run as fast as I can to my imaginary happy place.