Sleepless nights

Thinking of all the fights..

Never pitch black, always needing lights

Thinking of him, that frightening man.

Needing to move away.. So I ran.

Thinking of the tragic past..

The nightmares always seem to last.

Staring at the ceiling wondering why..

Why is it me who needs to cry?

Looking around my room..

Looking for where the monsters loom.

Crying for all reasons..

Never changing, no matter the season

Wondering how I became such a mess..

All I can do is sit and guess.

Tossing and turning in my bed.

Pounding and screaming in my head.

Painful memories all around.

Peace and happiness may never be found.

Monsters and killers in my mind,

Wishing the past I could leave behind,

I close my eyes and pray..

Pray that I'll make it through another day

Dreaming..Dreaming finally not of the past

But dreams turn to nightmares; dreams never do last

Fighting my body to go to sleep

But I'm thinking and I'm in too deep.

Trying to sleep but crying inside

In my head the monsters reside

Let me sleep let me be

Please I beg, let me be free..