(- just don’t mind me)

If I don't watch myself, I tend to write in parentheses (a lot)

Never understood why, if I'm already talking to a reader surely making an aside doesn't matter that much? (or maybe at all)

Maybe I'm not good at explaining myself in a sentence, only in a fragment safely bound inside a bubble of grammatical insert

(or maybe I just like whispering contradictions in my mind while I write)

If I don't watch myself, I'll insert the word "just" everywhere

Just now, just then, just here and there.

As if I'm trying to control the emotion in my words - lessen them, somehow, just a bit.

It's not necessary, or horrible, just a tad annoying and repetitive

And it just takes a few minutes of proofreading or Wordsearching to eliminate the extra baggage and just let my words flow

If I don't watch myself, I'll dash about my paragraphs - zooming, inserting, cutting - to cram as much in as possible before I end a sentence.

Or to emphasize what's important - like the end of the sentence itself.

I can't sit still and let the words flow at their own place - I have to make them move faster.

Because maybe I'm afraid you won't bother to read all the way through - you know, since it's so boring to read blocks of texts nowadays - so I'm trying to direct your eyes faster through the Tetris maze of my verbal vomit.

I guess the moral of this story is - I just have to watch myself (always).