Here I am.

I sat still

And forced my feet into the earth

To make sure it was still there

I am still here

And I inhaled to feel my lungs expand

And contract

Breathe in

Feel my heartbeat

Breathe out

Here I am

Breathe in

Here I am

Breathe out

Breathe out

Breathe. Breathe.

And I got caught up in my breathing

And I tricked myself

I overthought and

Then the pain

And the trembles came

The panic

And it hurt

And I hurt therefore I am

I hurt therefore I am

I hurt therefore

I am

Here I am.

And I sat still

And forced my feet

Into the earth once more.