Mesmerized

I fidget

I toss and turn

My heart clenches

Even in my dreams,

you are there.

I suffer from a malaise,

as you walk near me.

Close, but at the same time,

out of reach.

Your words obfuscate me.

Your looks torturous.

Your glances with your dark eyes..

I am bound.

Your speech is scintillating.

Your eyes enchanting.

Your smile bewitching.

You yourself are stunning

                                elegant

                                        handsome

                            tantalizing

                agonizing

breathtaking.

But then you fade.

Your facetiousness vanishes.

Your facetiousness that I adore.

Because I have to wake up.

I have to wake up to the cruel reality.

Where I am nobody.

Nobody to you.

My dreams are only reveries. 

I have to snap out of them.

I have to rise to the harsh truth.

My dreams can only show me

something I can never have.

And it breaks me.

It pierces me where it hurts.

Because, for those few priceless moments, I was truly mesmerized.