Heartache

I realize I’ve been dreaming,

The air is too thin.

The demons are screaming,

I think they might win.

It’s going dark,

My heart rate is low.

No therapy can save me,

I think I’m letting go.

The time is frozen,

The air is so cold.

I wish I could die,

But he won’t let me go.

He denies that he loves me,

But how could that be?

His eyes scream that he wants me,

While his lips say no.

I deny that I love him,

I love him so much.

My heart aches for him,

I yearn for his touch.

His soft, warm skin,

His bright electric eyes.

His smile when he sees me,

God, it lights up the sky.

I want him so badly,

But he could never be mine.

I can’t keep pretending that I’m his guy.

He could never love me,

It would never be right.

For now, we’re friends,

And I guess that‘s alright.

-Monachopsis