my unholy absentee father

this was never for you

no, this was a letter in passing

maybe for me,

maybe for them.

never for you,

you took everything i had

never said you wanted more

but i will not give you this

these are my words, for me

these are my words, for them,

never for you.

i never thought our paths

would cross again

no, then it seemed too good

too good to be true

i never wanted our paths

to part in the first place

but who am i to get what i want

they say that trust is a patient heart

head full of doubt

i second guess

over and over

again

and it consumes me now

i'm afraid i'm not who

i had hoped i would be

i'm afraid i'm not who

you knew me to be

but i never expected you change

and i never expected you to be the same