Wishing to Fall

I told myself

I’d never ask

The stars again

For a chance

If I knew

It’d never

Change him

I told them

That freezing night

That this was it

My last covenant

With the sky

On dying fall nights

That I would accept

His choices

As well as

My own

Now I find myself

On the hilltop

The closest I can be

To those little lights

Where they can hear

Me begging to them

For another night

Another August

To remind myself

What faith was like

So I could love him

I reached up

High above the clouds

And stepped

Into the

Open air

I looked down

To see the water

Reflections of

Our past in

The waves

As the stars

Called me

I realized

I wish

I was falling