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Maybe if I were prettier and thinner.

Maybe if boys paid more attention to me.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I were smarter.

Maybe if my grades were better.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I had more friends.

Maybe if I didn't have to spend my birthday alone.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I made more money.

Maybe if my boss appreciated me.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I wasn't a disappointment to my father.

Maybe if someone had believed in me.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I had been a more loving and devoted wife.

Maybe he wouldn't have found someone else.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I had been a better parent.

Maybe if my kids called more often.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I lost some weight.

Maybe people wouldn't think I was lazy and disgusting.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I had known I wasn't cut out to be a mom.

Maybe if this baby were somebody else's.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if the bars opened earlier.

Maybe if there was a drink that could fix this.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I had more energy.

Maybe if I found something I was good at that I loved to do.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I were enough.

Maybe if I deserved a place in this world.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I could just get away.

Maybe if I could go somewhere new.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.

Maybe if I could just disappear.

Maybe if I could stop existing for a while.

Maybe then I wouldn't feel this way.