Feel much worse

this is what I get for becoming friends

With hope for the future and dead end trends

Time heals all but this it’ll never mend

How alone you ever let me get, or let me feel

Tellin the mirror that this wasn’t real

I thought being loved was part of the deal

You were supposed to be there for me not sell me fear

But you did. So I ran. Saying I’d never come back

But I did. As a man. With a way better plan

But the plans had stopped including you, nothing left for me to choose

You took more from me than I could ever hope or dream to lose

But it’s fine. I’m good. I’m gonna be okay

And If the suns comes up for me another day

I promise to thank the ones along the way

For telling me I wasn’t done I still had something left to say

Someday you’ll get what you deserve

Ran out of people you can hurt

I don’t hate you but I don’t love you either

And I promise, that’s gonna feel much worse.

What could I do with wasted love

I swallowed it down and ate it up

Heart so big but it ain’t enough

Guess this is what it’s like to be jaded huh

I was only a kid but I felt full grown

Trying to build a life all on my own

Doing things that I shoulda been shown

Rackin up debt with my life on loan

But it’s fine. I learned that you get what you give

And it’s time. Cuz I earned the life wanna live

Guess this life belongs to me becausenow I have to fight

For any love I ever feel I don’t ever let it leave my sight

You can try, and say, you’ve missed me for so long

But I hope, at least, you know what you did was wrong

But all you did was me make strong,

Into a man you’ll never know

I got scars to tell you where I’ve been

and this is how I let it show

Sometimes I try to forget where I’m from

Too late, I know, the damage is done

Let you say what you say, stop letting it in

I don’t hate yesterday, Just stopped letting it win