Not being me

I’m not so sure if the sky is actually dark.

Or if black is all I can see.

Sometimes I don’t know what’s worse.

Being completely numb..

Or completely feeling everything.

I wish I could explain how I’m feeling in words rather than my body just shaking.

I wish the sun would shine just a bit brighter so I wouldn’t feel so damn cold.

-Meds saved me and killed me