The Reason for Everything

I couldn’t breathe.

The world around me was under a thick layer of water, drowning the bubbles of air that managed to escape my throat. My eyes were a river that flooded, the tears that could never escape me have created Niagara falls.

I scream once in agony.

Twice from loss.

And over and over again until my throat is raw as I sprawl myself across the floor. My hands are flying around me in a frenzy, pounding at the floor but I feel nothing.

I close my eyes, squeezing them shut; all trying to forget everything that has ever made me.

But it just made his black curls clearer.

It’s not like I didn’t know, or didn’t feel that I loved him. I neglected it for so long, hoping it would dissipate into the frenzy of emotions I was feeling. But it never did, and I couldn’t handle another broken heart.

This made me scream louder.

My stinging throat felt good as I released large bouts of air, getting up from my sprawled position to grab something, anything of his that would prove he existed.

*a short and unreleased excerpt from The Reason for Everything by me on wattpad*