Questions Left Behind

There's no one like you

Your voice always kind

Baring your soul

You never did mind

You carried a burden

Your tender, sweet heart

You grieved for your family

Your guilt set apart

Your care for us all

Watching tears fall for years

I can't believe you meant that

We'd face this great fear

You fought past that guilt

You conquered that shame

You knew deep forgiveness

You found a new name

You knew you were loved

In spite of it all

Forgiving yourself

Long after that fall

Just a moment of peace

You so longed for sleep

I sincerely doubt that

You meant it for keeps

I have many questions

What I really wanted to ask

Was your intent, forever

To leave us like that?

Was this somewhere you'd gone

In the past, long before

Approaching the edge

Of death's darkened door?

Did you feel emboldened

And given some courage

Each time there before

You'd resisted the urge?

To take your own life

Find relief of your pain

To go on to heaven

And see him again?

So many questions

I'd asked of you now

I know not the "why?"

I only know how