why so serous?

Everyone tells me that I need to lighten up, that I need to be happier. But thats not true. I don't need to be happy. Honestly, I dont even want to be happy. For some people, they have reasons to be happy, but me, there isn't really that many at all. I love my family, but for some reason i dont want to love my family. I actaully think that it's good I dont hate them, I'm happy with them sometimes, but trust me when i say that life isn't easy with them in it. So ask me why im so serous, but its because I feel pain and i'm not happy. So, sure, maybe a thirteen year old girl should be happy, but i'm not. So family, I hope youre happy.