In the Middle

My whole life

I have always been in the middle

Always simply the mediocre

Never one thing or the other

Never one extreme or the other

Never the girly girl or the tomboy

Never the pretty one or the ugly one

Never the sweetheart or the bully

Never the mute or the chatterbox

Never the smart one or the dumb one

Never the prude or the flirt

Never the most thoughtful or thoughtless

Never the best or the worst at anything

Never the loneliest or the most popular

Never the strongest or the weakest

Never the fastest or the slowest

Never the happiest or the saddest

Never the most hopeful or hopeless

Never the rule follower or the rule breaker

Never the biggest help or burden

Never the most useful or useless

Never the energetic one or the dull one

Never the brave one or the coward

Never the least or most traumatized

Never the one with the easiest or hardest life

Never the most grounded or aloof

Never the most truthful or dishonest

Never the selfless one or the selfish one

Never the believer or the doubter

Never the sane one or the crazy one

Never the least or the most screwed up

Never black or white

Always only all grey

I have always been just the normal one

The one in between

I have always been simply

There

Nothing head turning

Nothing spectacular

Nothing noticeable

Nothing interesting

Nothing memorable

Nothing noteworthy

Nothing special

I fade into the background

If life were a play

I would be in the ensemble

No one in the audience would see or care

Whether I was present or not

I disappear

I become invisible

I am invisible

Will I ever be anything else?

Will I ever be anything more

Than this?

Than me?