Empty Promises and Sweet Nothings

I should have known he was just using me

I shouldn’t of dropped everything for him like I did

He was never loyal to me

My friends found him on multiple dating sites

Throughout the course of our relationship,

But I chose to ignore it.

My fault.

Why is love so blinding?

He said he loved me.

I believed him.

His actions proved otherwise,

But I ignored the red flags,

I continue to find evidence of his disloyalty,

Yet I remain.

He says he wants to marry me,

But I can’t trust him to remain faithful.

He says he wants to start a family,

But I can’t trust him to not break us apart.

His past is troubling and I try to forget it,

But glimpses of his past are seeping in

He’s caving in and I can’t stop him.

I found out he was watching porn.

I wondered why he hadn’t been touching me

Sadly I found out and left the tab open

So he knew I knew.

I cannot forgive him

He is making the same mistakes over and over

No matter how much we fight, I don’t pussy out like he does

I don’t seek comfort in porn or

Run away and fuck the first person that calls me back

I don’t hit up other people in desperate need of meaningless connection.

I expected so much from him,

But only because I know what I am willing to do.

I don’t want to give up,

But when is it enough?