out of frame

my emotions are in pain

as if someone pulled out my lungs

dragged them across the wooden floor

and put them in icy water

only to leave me with a fever

that I can’t touch

the heat spreading through my skin

yet leaving me numb

powerless

with a whole gaping inside

blood streaming

but body intact

mind working

everything working, are you sure?

the strings that build me

they tangle

they shift

I feel so outside

sensations disturbing my matter

leaving me blind to logic

no sanity to sign on the dotted line

just this thing that I have

something without a name

it prays on me

but it also leaves

it always does

the only words falling out of me

are

it will get better... just not today

...