Tired and numbed

I step out..

Im trying to step out today..

In my heart

I feel the burden

I feel sick

Thats why I want to step out

Finding the reason why Im still alive

No one there

For me.. so..

I step back

I open the door

With hesitation I lock it

Its okay

Im telling myself

Its okay

Im trying to smile

Smile

Instead the tears drop

Im asking

Why Im still here

Dying is so hard to do

Living is so hard to do

I realize

Im just leftover

Wilting by myself

Deep in the sea

Out of this world

Craving to breath the happy life

I crawl into my bed

Wrapped myself with the cold blanket

I face the lamp at the ceiling

Not shining

Its dark

I reach my fake world

Listen to the hat in time music

I will end up sleeping the day out

Lets see the sun tomorrow

Again

Maybe tomorrow will work

For me

For me