Wishing you were enough

When you’re asleep, I’m with her

When you’re at work, I’m with her

If you only knew the days I call out sick

I wait until everyone leaves and take her out

When I’m done, I stare at the walls in a blank

Wishing you were enough

Hating myself because you’re not.

I know you had your suspicions

So when you push the door with force

Ready to start screaming, you see me there

And with tears in your eyes, you walk to me

As I smile at you with a blank look in my face

You see her, in the bed she laid

Right where I left her, she had done her job

Like while you sleep I sneak her out

When I call out from work and everyone leaves

Home alone with no worries, out in the open

I take her out my bag and she takes me far away

As I press her slowly into my veins

I stared right back at the wall

You screamed and cried without words

Smacks to my face, your lips and arms moving

Nothing they say, I hear nothing and feel no pain

I Smile at you, then stare back at the wall

Hoping this high doesn’t go away

Many years have passed and with her I still remain

Gone through most my veins

With a Stink of piss and shit I’ve lost all shame

The streets my home, I beg for her, with a cup

Telling stories I’ve made up, hoping I get enough

Hoping someone gives a buck