Dude, I miss you.

You left me and my family. Why? My mom needed you, my others and sisters needed you. And even I needed you. Yes, me. The girl that never showed her feelings to anyone. The girl that never talked about all of that personal stuff to anyone except you. Do you think we deserved this? I don’t think so. When you walked out dad, you left me and all of my feelings in a pile of trash. I didn’t deserve it. I used to think I did. I still do sometimes, but mostly those feelings have passed. I still love you. I still need you. Why don’t you care? I miss you with everything I’ve got. But does that even matter?