Inside My Soul

People think it's easy

Being who I am

They think I am naturally smart

That I don't even have to try.

But I'm different inside

I try so hard I reach the breaking point

I can't stand people thinking I'm dumb.

So I push myself

But sometimes

I just can't do it

Anymore

I break down

Cry

Shut them out.

I try

To stay calm

To be the perfectionist

But I'm not

I want to run and dance all day

I don't want

To be perfect

Or smart.

I want to be me

Not who everyone

Expects me to be

Wants me to be.

I don't want to be

The girl they want me to

I don't mind people thinking I'm smart

But I wish

Just once

They would let me

Be me.

That once

Just one little time

They would be proud

Of something I did

That wasn't

By the perfect girl

They make me be.