I’m Sorry

If I'm gone...oh who am I kidding. When I'm gone, which might be sooner than later. In life, the only thing I ever wanted was to die without regrets, now it seems like regrets are all I have.

When I'm gone?

I don't think anything will change. I have such a fleeting existence; even alive, I'm not involved in any ecosystem. My house might even run smoother. The world might become a bit better. I wrote notes the other day, so I'm already done with telling other people what I wanted to.

I honestly wanted to live, I really did, its just that everything is so unbearable. I am unbearable.

Mum...I know you're a lil sad but be honest, you're more relieved, aren't you?

After all the abomination you've brought into the world is now gone. I'm sorry I was never able to make you proud. I am sorry for being how I am.

I'm sure my brother would secretly be happy. Afterall his useless older sister can't cause anymore trouble now.

I'm sorry that I'm such an unfunctional human being.......