Anxiety

Fear—of failure, of humiliation, of ineptitude

Fear—of success, of expectations, of false friends

Fear—of waning health, of debilitating injury, of sudden death

My greatest adversary is the immobilizing anxiety that protects me from loss and failure, but stops me from experiencing, from living, from loving. Each day is a battleground. Some days bring resounding success, and others find me slain among the corpses of my hopes and dreams.