Wrath

I know I've written somewhere about the internal difficulties I have with this particularly "deadly" sin. I wouldn't say I'm a sociopath or one that would consider taking this too far in the realm of reality. In my mind, I can fabricate situation after situation with many foes, different strengths, different everything, and find a means to conquer and demolish their attacks against me.

Maybe I've felt like this for some time, such as a child that believed the world hated him. I always felt like I was an outcast with a mind not fit for the "normal" fitting. Fine by me. I always had an athletic or mental pursuit that I could exercise these issues through. In this age, I find myself wondering if someone will challenge me. If someone will challenge me, knowing that my drive knows deepest of bounds. I don't know their drive, but I have yet to have a moment void of thought, and even in "the red" I find lunacy driven thoughts of attack, that work with great finesse.

Wrath, I like to claim as my greatest weakness, but it drives a greater amount of my strength. In moments where I've engaged the sin, I lift harder, I workout longer, I write more intensely, and I find the thin line on the other side of love more embracing. I constantly think strategically so that no man, woman, entity, being, physical or metaphysical conquers my form. I'm not the most brickhouse in appearance, and I'm by no-means the sharpest knife that I've carried, but the combination I know well, and constantly yearn to engage.

I don't necessarily believe that there's a recruitment between the sky and the below-earth, but I believe that we are given gifts that may be reminiscent of both. Wrath is a comfort mechanism letting me know, that not only can I burn the bridge, I can make sure you wish not to rebuild it. Just writing about it inspires me to see what my body is still capable of in this hour. I always wonder. I have only respect and belief in seeing peace on Earth, but it takes more than I have ever used to get away from Wrath, and she definitely has become a relationship that's gone on too long...I just don't know if I can leave her.