Eyes That Tell a Story

I wonder if my eyes tell the story of my past?

Are my eyes filled with pain and tragedy?

Are my eyes happy or is it a travesty?

Because I can't seem to distinguish between the two.

People always tell me I have beautiful eyes, cat-like eyes.

But I don't see anything beautiful about them.

I can't seem to see anything beautiful in the world because all I see is darkness surrounding me.

Please God help me see the beauty in life.

Please help relieve me of the hatred covering my heart because I want to live happily.

I put a shield over my heart that's blocking me from ever having a pure heart.

I want a new heart, a new mind, one that's clear from pain.