Slow Burn.

Its a slow burn that starts under the skin, soon diffusing all over me. Sweeping away all sane thoughts, only a bitter feeling left behind. When it bubbles and rises up in the form of words, I know not where they emerge from, but just spew out. Things I can't imagine to say when totally calm just burst out of me. Leaving shame and self-pity in their stead. Later I do regret thoses deeds and harsh words spoken in the heat of anger. Apologizing with all my heart if someone got hurt by them. Still at that moment my temper gets the best of me. At certain times when the hurt is too hard to bear even my tear glands begin to leak. As if connected to the rise in anger, the more angry I get the more they burst forward. Thus I just try to never let the situation get out of hand and to somehow lock it away to keep my peace of mind.