im alone.

I lay on my bed and realize, I am completely alone.

I turn off Snapchat after seeing my ex best friend and other people and realize: I have no friends who care enough to check up on me or invite me to anything.

I turn in my bed to the other side. My siblings haven’t seen me all day and it’s 10 pm, not one of them came to see if I was kidnapped. Nor did my parents.

As I get up and as the blood is rushing through my body from my head giving me a headache, I think before I leave my room. If my dad is in there I will have to do the dishes for the 4th time in a row.

I lay back on my bed and scroll through my text messages, the most recent ones from my family. Wow not even my friends who I hope are my friends talk to me. I open my best friend’s and my chat. Last talked was over a month ago.

I see my messages which were piling up but no replies. I sure wonder how it is having friends who respond.

I turn in my bed and think over my life. I thought about all the times I trusted people and got stabbed in the back, or the times I tried to get friends, but I’m not a worthy friend. They always run to something new. Someone new. Maybe this is why I like being by myself. The only person I need to trust is myself.