When I die...

The pure agony of no one being nearby

I can’t even specific my version of thirteen reasons why

Whom I blame for my despair, the list is long

The pain of torment can’t be healed by any song.

Standing of the cliff, I want to turn back

To say a goodbye to the ones who may feel my lack

To tell my parents how much I loved them

To say everyone that my marks couldn’t ever stitch my hem

Thinking it makes no sense now

Because no one would care why it happened and how

The thought of living more is just mundane

It’s easy to die than to find life as gain

My presence is just obsolete

So, I looked down deep down below my feet

The depth scared my heart to hell

Already failed in life, I can’t fail in death as well.

I closed my eyes and jumped without thinking next

The air took me in its arm like a mother’s jest

Going down, I could remember my childhood

How I used to run with my friends into the wood

Father bringing a chocolate for me everyday

Mother’s embrace was the safest place to stay

How could I do this,came to my mind

I could have tried once to search my talent hidden behind

What I did was too stupid, I realised

I yelled but there was no one to find

I got up with all sweat on my face

Oh, it was only a mare and I was still in the race

My parents were terrified seeing me that way

I told them the whole,they felt chocked to say

My mother took me like a child of four

Her tears telling me not to ever think such stuff anymore

I thanked God, he showed me the right way

But, not all get the second chance to live the life with may.