12:12am

Staring at my pillow through my blurred vision and my face streaming with endless tears yet again

I think to myself “why do I love somone who just keeps hurting me”?

Why do I keep doing this over and over again? When do I draw the line?

When do I let go of the hope that twists and turns in my heart?

The hope that maybe one day things would be different

Things would be right

But they won’t, they never will

There will always be lies,

other girls,

temptation

There will be pretending, there will be manipulating

There will always be that memory of knowing I wasn’t pretty enough,

I wasn’t fun enough,

or good enough

When he says he loves me

but sneaks around when im not there

Is that love?

Does he love me when he lies?

Does he love me when he is laughing, holding hands with another?

Does he love me when he plays with my mind?

Does he love me when he rips my heart to shreds

You say you have "paid your dues" and apologized to me

Does saying "Sorry" undo what you have done?

Does saying "Sorry" make up for all the times you made me feel worthless?

Does saying "Sorry" justify your unfaithfulness?

Must I forgive you yet again and have the same thing happen again?

I may have been niave then, but I can see right through that act you put on

Stop pretending..please...let my torture end

Where you pretend to be passionately in love with me

And as soon as I look away you've got another

It's just a game to you, isnt it?

All the world is your stage

And you string on hearts like puppets

Do you really know what love is?

Do you Really know?

I dont think you understand at all

All I've ever done was love you

And all you've ever done was hurt me

You dont hurt the people you love