Waves

My life is like a wave

Starting small

Getting bigger

And then crashing

Into nothing

I reach the top

Only to be thrown back down

To the very bottom

Violently

And then it all begins again

I go back to the start

Rise

And then fall

Over and over

And I never learn

I never figure out

That I can’t stay on the top

I will always crash

I will always get hurt

I will always fall

Into the sand

I don’t understand

How I can pick myself up

And ignore my tear stained cheeks

I don’t understand

How every single time

I run back

To the same thing

That leaves my body aching

Again and again and again

Will this be my end?

Will I be controlled

By the ocean

By the forces greater than me

For my whole life?

What if I refused to get up?

What if I stayed in the sand

Trying desperately

To let it hide me?

Would I be forgotten?

Or would they drag me back

To fall

Once more?