Why have thou forsaken me?

I was going through a really tough time in my marriage. I left the bedroom around 2am, sat in the living room - alone and in the dark. Festering, brooding - trying to follow the principles that I believed to be right for a husband, and wondering why is found no benefit it in. I could take no more... “God, I hate you!” I screamed out loud. And suddenly I was alone, out in the desert, and I heard His voice behind me “Wait, come back!” I had ran away. Then I understood what hell was, the absence of God’s spirit. I realized that I’d taken his presence for granted... that the only reason I didn’t feel constant despair in life, was that He was never too far away. No matter how many times I hide, I find Him always willing to seek.