so empty

It's the moment you can actually feel your heart shattering into millions of pieces as someone leaves you once again. Knowing that it's your fault for letting them in again when you knew what was going to happen. The worst feeling in the world is earth shattering betrayal. You never get over it and it never goes away. That feeling just lingers in your chest waiting for you to trust someone again and when you finally do it squeezes your chest til you can't breath reminding you what trusting causes...