I write more than I speak

I am a socially awakard person. Therefore I am in love with Writing than Speaking. I struggle to find words that make up a conversation than a written sentence. I try not to speak much as I might hurt you through speaking than writing. Speaking has to be at the moment (I call it Instant Information) and on the spot which is difficult for me... I still could not fathom (and admire) NORMAL people who socialize. How fluent their information flows from their brains to their mouths and to their listeners. Yes, I tried to "improve" my social skills... But no matter how many books I read about being a normal sociable person, people around me call me a try-hard or pretending to be sociable which is frustrating. I have so much information in my head that wants to erupt out - writing is like a water tab, it enables me to control and filter the flow. So that is why I write (texting, emailing, writing, typing etc).