I Hope I am Reformed

This starving sickness haunts me

Clouded past still hangs above me

Don’t know how you could love me

Just know that I can’t trust me

I’ve tried to clean my cobwebs

Couldn’t bear to catch you in them

Tried to wash the sour sweat from our bed

Wouldn’t want you to feel unwanted

These churning feelings burn me

I thought your love could turn me

Turns out it’s still inside me

Just hope that I can fight me

This guilt could quickly kill me

I thought your love would heal me

Just hope you can escape me

Before my sin can break free

So I force myself to be honest with you,

Though I’ve never been good at telling the truth

I hope I never lie to you.