21 and Restless
I can’t seem to figure out how to
be an adult
I just never feel good enough
I’m nobody’s favorite
Nobody’s love
Nobody
Spare me your pity and let me live my life, untouched.
Unavailable
How is it possible
to crave
so much of the world
to want
so much out of life
and still not want to exist
and wonder how much more of life you can take
How is it possible to be grateful for life
and want to give it back
How is it possible
to smile so genuinely
but feel like screaming instead
“You’re so young
you have the time to figure it out”
Give it time, give it time, give it time
but what if I don’t have the time
or worse
what if I don’t want the time
–dealing with anxiety and depression