I can't sleep again.

Her smile wakes me up,

and her laugh keeps me up all night.

"What did she do to you?"

Is a question I hear everyday.

Coffee is my new best friend,

Along with cigarettes and sex.

Coffee keeps me awake,

Cigarettes keep my anxiety low

And sex reminds me what you left behind.

It's not that I can't sleep

But everytime I try to,

There you are.

Whether it's the color of your hair

Or the way you sound when you sing,

The way you danced knowing that you can't.

I can't stop thinking of how we loved each other

Completely unadulteraded bliss

But gone in an instant.

I'm not sure if I was in love

Or falling apart.