The Proposal
I wish I could do better by
you cause thats
what you deserve
you sacrifice so much of your life
in order for this to work.
Yes my bedroom is a disaster that is a burden to clean.
I go to bed when it is technically morning.
I sleep in too late.
I make plans, and cancel them the day before they happen and I dont know why.
Sometimes, I cry in the shower,
or before I go to sleep,
or anywhere there isnt another body.
They are signs of
Signs of
Signs of
I just find myself doing these things.
While Im off chasing my own dreams
sailing around the world
please know that Im yours to keep,
my beautiful girl.
One cannot tell a girl that loves too deeply
that you might just disappear someday
Leave Florida unannounced, go off to
somewhere else in the world and
never call again.
She will almost cry
stare out the Ikea window.
Her head full of water and glass
She willl try her best to be perfect for you
perfect for you
perfect for
fear
When you cry a piece of my heart dies
knowing that I may have been the cause
if you were to leave
fufill someone elses dreams, I think I might totally be lost.
You jump back and forth between promising me forever
and wanting to disappear
I will always avoid that Starbucks parking lot.
I refuse to write poetry for my significant other.
But my head is full music
full of water, and glass.
Full of all the grief that was once love but now has no where to go.
The love I wanted to give endlessly out of this fountain
that is my body, stuck this thick grey sludge
is clogging every pore.
You dont ask for no diamond rings
no delicate string of pearls
thats why I wrote this song to sing
my beautiful girl
One cannot tell a girl that has far too much hope
that this is the song you would propose to her with
as if she needed a sneak peak
as if it was coming so soon
she will feed far too deeply into the fantasy and bet her whole soul on forever
dream to fondly of the world you two would create
love you with so strong a force
she might break
might brandish
will
lose the fight with
a knife
I wish I could do better by you
cause thats what you deserve.
You sacrificed so much of your heart,
in order for this to work.
While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
sailing around the world.
Please know that I'm yours to leave,
My beautiful boy.