The Biggest Fear

I'm afraid to fall in love. Everybody is a little bit I know. But for me, I'd say it's my biggest fear. I still never have, and when the chance almost came, I would shut it down immediately. I purposely avoid relationships and liking somebody. Anytime a boy said he liked he, which has only been a few, I go dead on the outside. I completely withdraw myself and desperately try to get away from him. If he so much as touches my hip, brushes my fingers, wishing to hold them tight, I tense. I go stiff. I get uncomfortable. I become terrified. I hear my mind tell me it will never happen. And I believe it. I believe it because I do not want to. Because I am far too terrified to fall in love.