My Remorse

Ario

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wasn't sure if he survived what I've done.

My heart was killing me, because I KNEW I was a monster.

All of the people I had hurt were now angels in my mind.

Innocents which haunt me to this day.

For some confronted a disease or this world's convictions.

And I foolishly used my words to harm their emotions

without knowing where it could lead.

And now I blame myself for their demise.

But this one incident had been my demons

for as long as I can remember.

Some said it was an accident when we were children

I had hurt him with we were racing around the playground.

When I did, I was so afraid

that I had caused him all the pain

that I ran home.

Our fathers faced each other,

and spoke about the fault of mine.

I knew I had damaged him,

and I am punishing myself everyday

for I didn't know if he was alive or dead.

I was stupid for having hurt him,

and now I believe there are secrets that no one is telling me.

What I truly understand is that the world is angry,

and that someone will get vengeance.

I wish I could turn back time,

to undo all of the harm that I've caused.

I am ready to face justice

to take responsibility for my deepest sins.

Whatever harm happens to me,

I'll accept it.

For I know I truly deserve it.